Need i ask? The answer has already been given... and i guess i can't take that against him but it was soe hard to understand why he lost all feelings for me...
Last night we had visitors over for the night... and this debate striked up between my dad, ninong and my mom and tita... both women against the men, the children, specifically me, mike and maki just sat at the side amusing ourselves at the flow of the conversation, our opinions we kept to ourselves for the moment, it was hard getting in but our reactions were heard. Arrg! I had a hard time keeping in some of my more vocal reactions because my dad kept pointing out things so lightly that it was hard not explaining that it isn't that easy when you're in a situation that makes you hurt the most. He was lucky enough not to have gone through situations like being left behind because the girl had some other lover or had simply lost interest in him... he was lucky enough to have fallen in love with my mother and ended up happily married. Saying things like how easy it was so hard for people to accept that a relationship ended just by going on with life... but it isn't that easy, i being one of those people, i honestly say that it is far from being easy... it cost me more than heartache... and until now the pain still remains... for the memory never leaves me. You see years may pass but the memory will still remain and so will the pain. Time heals all wounds?? no... time only helps the process of moving on but the wound will always be there... the pain will never disappear, that is what i believe, even though how much we try to think that the pain will leave, it won't, we only learn how to cope with it.
Being human, we feel, that is our curse... we feel as well as dwell on the hurt. We dwell on each emotion we have, dwell on each experience... we think, that is what makes us human.
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