My heart breaks in a million pieces and yet i find myself smiling... smiling away the pain, the loneliness and the anger. I believed that i could get over anything... over anyone and yet... yet i found myself drowning in my own misery. I locked everything up in delusion enough to find myself gripping tight to reality or else i'll drift along into a world which i could only hope to reach. I'mnot making much sense, but how can i help it when everything else around me makes no sense anymore... i've grown up, and though my mind and my heart wishes to stay within the realm of make believe, of beauty and of love... i cannot, i have been woken up in a manner that i will never forget for it has scarred me more than i thought it could. Many have loved and have lost... and yet thought does not bring me relief... i find no comfort that many has movedon through such hard times... i cannot... i try, but i seem incapable of letting go...
This is my life... my burden... my own prison, a prison i've created due to either love or pure selfishness, i don't really know...
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